I am emotional crap tonight. I feel like I’m in the dark, alone, with no way to take care of myself. Recently every mirror or reflective surface has become a jury. With me unable to look them in the eye it feels like I’m lying to myself about one of two lives in living. I leave the house as one person and with the door clipping my heels when I get home, I’m someone else. I just want to find something to balance my life. There must be a tipping point ahead. Muscles in my neck and back are getting tighter from the stress I’m putting on myself. It is at times unbearable. So please universe, tip one way or the other?